He was tortured ....... in an awful way, that makes you thought the picture of him, shld belongs to those victims at the World War time.

His left ear was slashed, numerous burnt marks, skinny like a living skeleton ...... and they drove him away and dumped him insides the jungle ..... left alone.

It is a true story happens to a young man originated from India, leaving his hometown and come to work in Bukit Mertajam, Penang, Malaysia. Abused by his employer ..... and hardly have any place to turn to for help.

Imagine if fate make a twist, and we are in his shoes ..... leaving our own homeland, and hv to fight for a living abroad. Can you stand the pains ???

Respect every human being ..... that is my plead for tonight.

Yeah, that is the 1st time I took part in the PG bridge run, back in 1999 ....., TH suggested we go for the 22.5km run before it's end of the world . Haha, that is everyone saying abt the year 2000 then, it might be the end of the world .

Well, it sure like turns out to be end of the world for me after the run. Which I managed to complete in 3.5 hours run + walk + almost crawling. I can't manage to drive my motorbike to go back to my home in mainland, and we need TH's father to come over to the island to rescue us . And the best happens when I reached home ....... I felt myself paralysed from the lower part of my body, well almost. As I really can't felt my legs at all, either moving them. So there I was, lying on the bed for the rest of the day, and even got to skip my classes the next day ....... as I wasn't able to drive my motorbike properly .

And now, 8 years after that scary experience ...... I again challenge myself to take part in the PG Brige run, yet another 22.5km run (for sure I will again walk n crawl). How it happens ?? I guess the gang got a bit excited last Saturday night, and eventually we talk each others into taking part in the run .

But I always cherish that run in 1999 ....... crazy and silly actually, to hv run in such distance without any training. I hv a muscle cramp after having quarter of the distance to go ....... almost give up, but finish it by walking step by step. And run to the finish line to collect my medal. I actually past the limit of 3 hours, but they still hv some left, so I'm lucky to collect it . No matter what, I still deserved it .

For u guys out there, if u happens to be at Penang on 24th June, come join us for the run. It isn't everyday that you manage to run/walk on the bridge that is free of any vehicle ....... come and catch the sun rise together .

David Tao 的一首歌，是我最喜欢的。

欣赏他, 是在他成名后的几年。那时他来大马举办第一次演唱会，为了懂得唱， 事前一个月， 老在车上听他的歌曲，工作时也是 。他的第二次演唱会， 有放字幕了，也不需要做功课了 。

喜欢这首歌淡淡的哀愁， 是那种承受得起， 明天还得继续下去的感觉。

寂寞是季节性的，人生还有其他的季节 。。。。。。 不妨耐心期待 。

So after been walking around the paddy fields for the past 2 days, I decided to start my jogging session by today .

Well, I don't hv much confidence to finish the whole round of the paddy fields, which seems the whole distance is abt 800m , not quite long yeah. But trust me, I'm never good in my stamina, even at my peak period ...... I'm always a sprinter, but never a marathon runner.

Anyhow, I keep myself moving bit by bit, and suprisingly I'm able to finish the 1 round without any stop . But just once I stopped, and hv to walk again, and quickly catching my breath ...... I felt like my 2 legs are "inofficially" disconnected from my body, I just couldn't feel them at all .

Hahaha ..... , but I still keep on walking, fine tune my breath. A man who is jog into my way, asked why I'm not running anymore ..... unable to talk much, I can only give him that sorry smile .

But anyhow, that is a good run ..... at least I'm able to finish a round today. Tomorrow I will go for a hiking, then day after it, I will continue to strike for 1.5 rounds ...... and improve it with every jog .

Well, a crawl in the clouds ...... yeah, pretty much. But at least I'm on the clouds .

老妈子吊了我胃口蛮久，说有机会就煮阿参鱼汤让我过瘾， 因我老是提到外面的小贩水准不高， 没机会喝到像样的。

经过三年零八个月的等待，昨天终于给老妈子买到阿参鱼。 她还叫我去瞧瞧那鱼是怎的模样， 可我的妈啊 。。。。 她连鱼头都去掉了， 我怎想像呢 。 搞不好， 是"毁容灭迹"，不让我认得， 那我就不买了 。。。 因为那汤也不符合健康标准 。

千呼万唤， "死"出来 。。。。咦， 那是什么汤啊。干嘛老爸没得尝试那酸辣的阿参鱼汤呢 ？

这就是了嘛 。。。。 阿参鱼汤， 老妈子在旁洋洋得意的样子。 ， 得了吧，卖相与我期待的差个天南地北， 我的妈啊 。

结果被我三振出局 。。。。可还是意思意思喝了一碗。老妈子也讨了没趣， 直嚷以前就是这种煮法。唉呀，年代不一样， 下次该问个明白。

明天要带给金多多品尝的计划也得取消啦 。。。。 ，还是在小贩档享用啦。

Hemm, decided to flee the office early today ..... I'm running out of idea to solve the problem. Hope for a better tomorrow .

I drag my mum to take a walk with me at the padi fields around our place. The farmers just start to grow the new padi now ...... right time, since it is keep raining these days.

Saw some guys are doing the jogging, I might join them next time ..... well, pretty soon. I got to pick up my stamina back .... and put off my weight too , too much tiramisu these days.

When we almost reach home, a flock of cranes fly over the sky ..... in a V shape. That I called "a walk in the clouds" ...... I wish I can join them .

So, finally Quin is packing her stuff and go back to Aus again this early morning. I guess she shld reached Brisbane by now.

Last night we have our last gathering at the Old Town cafe ..... SP bring along her "cool" little son. But this round, he's no more that shy, and even start calling us, a really sweet boy .

We're all expecting for her next return trip already. Hopefully this round in CNY, where our friend LB, who is in England now, can also join the gathering. It will be a "real" gathering then, with 7 of us finally get together .

So, last night the pills doesn't works, at least not on me .

Early this morning, I hv asked mum to get me the usual pills that I took, this one shld be stronger and more effective.

So once reached home today, I hv taken 1 dose ..... and started to feel sleepy, as I tot I might go to bed soon, so I might as well take another dose, so I can be healed quicker.

When I told my mum, that I had taken the 2nd dose, she's almost like wants me to throw up the pills ...... but I'm not suppose to take the next dose in such a brief period, it got to be at least 4 hours .

I hope there won't be overdose issue here ..... as I still feeling quite well to post 2 entries here ....... errrrrrr, I feel like dizzy, I can't breath, someone, someone ...call 911 .......................

OK, that's the end of the drama, I shld go to bed now, let the 2 dose take their place in making me a helthy fellow tomorrow, healthy enough to go for a sushi dinner.

Anyone remember this movie ?? I only watch it in the TV, I didn't realise then all those small kids in the movie "Stand By Me" can become a big star ...... I only realise then how good it is to hv a bunch of good friends who are going to stand by you, no matter how, and when.

I had issue lately, regarding of old friends that I hv knew over the years, some are indeed very old friends. It makes me think of the way I view my friends. That along the years, does I accept them as my good friends, for the real person they are? or the person I thought they shld be?

Because for some friends, if I hv knew them for who they are today, I will definitely wouldn't bother to have them as a friend at the 1st place.

People changed, maybe I hv not changed, but friends around me changed ...... and I still see them as who they are when we are young, when we're naive, when we're pure.

But as SY mentioned it, I shld be more flexible ...... accept the fact that there's many different characters that made up this world, so maybe I will try now to see every of my friends as who they are now, and stop thinking everyone shld think and behave like me. But the fact of accepting who they are, will not lead to the result where I will change who I am.

Nonetheless I'm sad ...... sad of letting go the image of my fellow old friends that are once my best pal, accept the person as who they are, and that's it. They might still be my friends ..... but far away of being my gang .

Again, I got a flu ..... thanks to the strong air cond which is blewing on top of my head all day long .

Well, it started pretty hot in the office in the morning, since it's the 1st day of working ....... soon it get cool enough. And I was thinking it is just nice.

And wait till I hv come back from lunch, oh uh ..... caught the cold .

So, here I am ..... going to take some of the pills now, go to bed, and hope to be all healthy again tomorrow.

恍恍惚惚 看见你向我走来
带着熟悉的笑容 那我形容如阳光般的
坐正了身体 你却消失了

曼谷的机场 一年后的我
带着他的叮咛 却唤起了心底深处的你

我们终究没见着了 在那星期五的午后

我愉快地告别了酒店经理 答应春天我会回来的
经验老到地跳上廉宜的计程车 快载我到巴士站吧
我记着你的话 向着阿曼大学去了

你会在邻近的回教堂祈祷 你在电话里叮咛着
我就静静地坐着 看着祈祷开始 结束
你会见着我的 会走向我的
人群散了 你呢

电话一端 你急促地唤着我
你未能来了 上帝插手了
怎会如此凑巧 在我们相见的前一天

太年少了 太冲动了 太多太多了
我的世界停顿了 可以回去吗
回去我还没失去你 还没失去我们

站在你镜头前的我 把链牌拿出来了
背后刻着你的名字 莫哈末

带着你 戴着你 我继续流浪了 。。。。。。
我所见 就是你所见 但愿如此

你是自由的 你知道吗
希望你不再孤单了

Yeah, the Queen from Australia is finally touched down KL last week, and this week she's back to PG, her own hometown.

I wanted so badly the tiramisu to look nice in the gathering just now, but ...... it turns out to be a worsen piece of my previous work . So while I'm smiling now, I was pretty much dissapointed then, but when you cool down and think of what you can learn from the mistakes, you know that you actually gain an experience ..... so I think I will produce an excellent tiramisu in my 3rd attempt .

Ahh, the gathering topics today revolved more on the baby sitting, and PV share the experience of her birth giving ...... which scared the hell out of us, but Quin is the most affected, as she got 1 more thing to worry besides of the pain ..... her body figure .

Well, LB ..... sorry to dissapoint you with the lousy system setup, especially u have been waking up earlier for this "video conferencing". We will meet again this Friday evening, I think I will install the web cam in my company netbook, and we shld hv a fine conferencing this time. Huh, I shld hv bought my company notebook yeah , it got the internal mic, but no skype, I didn't installed it yet. I will see what I can do .

This entry is a messy one, I hvn't blogged for the past 1 week ....... it had been a busy working week, and most likely will be for the whole month. And when I'm tired, my brain can't function well ...... not to mention to be inspired for blogging .

Wake up this morning with a headache, sigh. I had it before go to bed last night, shld hv taken those painkiller pills before sleep.

What an awful way to start my 1st working day in April, hv to keep massaging my forehead while driving to the office ..... and knowing will have a tough morning, since now it's the month end period, if any issue arise, got to respond and solve it quickly.

Luckily the day ended quite ok. I can catch my breath in the evening, 1 1/2 hours before the the scan out time again. Have some chat with Juin, bored her with my speech again , and she had send me the Gaarder book 'Through a glass darkly' ..... but I'm quite reluctant to give it to my big bro's friend now. As he's under going the chemo now, I couldn't hv give him a book on how to accept the death peacefully na. Got to study his condition before hand, then only decide what approach to take.

Read the newspaper, the issue of vast bare area in Lojing Highlands come into picture again. I'm interested to know how the government had been functioning so far regarding the forest management in our country, anyone who know's where the place to look out for this info, pls leave me the link/links.

So come into the month of April in 2007, the world is still spinning ..... and thanks God it just rain heavily, at least I won't have another headache tomorrow .