Hemm, back from having a tea break with SB, the rest can't show up ..... I guess the meeting is too prompt, they must hv something already arranged.

Getting lots of news abt old friends from SB, makes me realise I hv not keeping in touch with them ever since I hv back from Klang. Most of my time now is spending with my colleagues ...... guess I hv neglected my old buddies a lot.

I guess tomorrow I shld hv sent out some SMS and let them know that I still care, and still exist in this planet .... yeah, I shld.

SB is having a hard time with her boss today, it was a shame to see someone that is smart and capable, but was not appreciated by the lousy manager. I can hardly understand her feeling, but I know it shld be very hard for her. So I listen to her carefully, even though I'm a bit sleepy then ..... well, that's are friends for.

Hemm, Quin is coming back next Wed ...... I'm eagerly waiting for all of us to meet up, seeing PV's baby for the 1st time, skype with LB who is in England now, pity that she won't be able to taste my tiramisu again.

I hope all my friends are doing fine, sorry that I didn't ask lately .

今天秀怡出发了， 朝向中部， 往着四个月前我回来的路， 去继续她在半岛的逗留。

我开玩笑地说， 再过一年， 她该取得"槟岛"公民权了， 现在却弃权了。彼此认识整九年了， 该算是好友吧。

她是我最称职的朋友， 拿来利用的那种。 大学时，陪我壮胆，跟我心仪的男孩子见面了。我还记得在那楼梯间上上下下，脸红红的， 她威胁说再不上去就不再陪我来了 。。。。。 结果激将法成功，过后我就过桥拆板，独自去约会了。

失恋了， 又是她陪着我看夜空，我喝着啤酒， 她喝着可乐，对着漆黑的大海，无言的。男孩结婚了，也是她告诉我的，事先还要我保持冷静呢。。。。。让她失望了，电视情节没出现，我还是好好地 ，还有整座森林嘛。可是也该扮落寞的，让她请我那一餐嘛。

她的房间窗口，曾是我的守望台。她室友的藏书，让我认识了"苏菲"。好多的回忆，在那小单位里。

谢谢她的一路陪伴，还有没在我面前"假正经"，虽然是个虔诚的基督徒（讲圣经，但那次我听错了，现在还再当笑话）。

接下来还是可以利用她的，去中部游玩，可以免费住宿嘛。写下这篇， 希望不再那么忧郁了。

好像是前两天发作的吧， 回到家里， 呆呆地看着夜空， 捧着书， 什也读不进， 越看越觉得压迫 。。。。 搞什么嘛 ？

许是该离开， 去走走了。透透气， 暂时忘了烦人的工作，不欲讨论的课题。走几步， 海阔天空呢！

Pick up the quote from my favourite movie "The ShadowLands", starring Anthony Hopkins and Debra Winger.

Wasn't so sure what it meant when I was 17 then, I didn't do much of reading, besides of the school books and the National Geographic magazine from the library.

I first realise the meaning when I pick up a translation book of J.Krishnamuthi (Think on these Things) ....... and I smile to myself, and since then I keep reading, to know that I'm not alone.

We hv planned for the sauna over the week, with that we even manage to trick Kim to come back to Prai earlier, so that can join us.

But due to some "unforseen" scenarios, eventually end up only lyy and me are going for the sauna.

I never hv any experience in having a sauna, don't know what to expect, and how it will makes me feel ...... though lpl did told me some of her experience, but I just couldn't feel it that way.

Well, I manage to stay in the sauna room for more than 20 minutes I guess, keep breathing using my mouth, I really not able to breath through my nose ...... sooner or later, my body told me that seems like my body is not having enough oxygen after all. So I just went out the room all wet, dry up myself, and wait for lyy to surrender later.

So there I was, sitting with a not so clear mind, try to feel whether there's any sign that my body did get lighter ....... nope, I don't think so .

Still I like to get all sweat thru some exercise, where I can move my whole body, and not just sitting still there and try to figure out who is sitting next to me in the thick steam .

But nevertheless, a brand new experience ...... somemore it's free, hehehe .

Hemm, it's a normal working Friday evening, looking forward for the day to ended soon, so I can enjoy my weekend again .

And then the phone rang, and I'hv just finished yawning ..... so when I say "Hello", it's quite unrecognizable by the others on the line. It tooks me few seconds to organise my mind and realised who is really on the line.

We had previously discuss the issues over the emails, and I had all the while thought he is a "she" , sorry .... hard for me to understand the Indian name sometimes.

He called me up, and so we try to get it right, over the phone. Along the way, I hv to really concentrated to get over his dialect, and try to understand the things he's saying. Even that, but we still manage to make clear of each of the point.

And the more we talked, I hv this strange feeling, hoping the conversation will not gonna end .... but as the time passed by, you know you have to stop anyhow as you're already running out of the work matters to talk abt.

Is a really strange feeling I'm having then, never feel such way for anyone before, and never had the feeling hitting me so directly before.

So we both hang on to the phone, wondering who is gonna tell goodbye 1st. At the very end, we're like "So, yeah ..... I think, yeah .... ok, so ..". You really need to say goodbye. He wished me a nice day, and me too.

He later get back to me with an email, saying it's a nice talking to me ...... hemm, I wish to say the same thing, but sometimes you are just too shy .

Strange feeling ...... really it is.

清明时节雨纷纷 ， 又让大家记起是和故人聚聚的时候了。

今年老哥远在深圳，只得我一人为那坟碑上漆了，近年已很少拿起笔墨了，希望字体别让爷爷和奶奶见怪吧 。 我从未看过他们，来找我算账的话， 我也认不出呢 。

希望天气凉凉的， 那大家都好办事，至少我的笔划也顺畅点吧。

只是大家都会伤感的，为那早逝的青年，为那还来不及呼喊的青春，年复一年，怀着那痛，还是要活下去的，为自己。

朋友金多多老在呼喊她的青春， 早就不该让她读那欧阳林的书， 现在已经变成她的口头禅了 。

青春从来都是短暂的， 唯人生是长久的， 精彩或平淡， 但别是沉闷的，因人生得来不易。
想想要做些什么的，看看那些的 。。。。。 我相信来到这世界， 就不该浪费这一趟。 我不相信就是没什么好做的 。

会有些不忿的， 也有些悲哀的，当看到有人不活在当下，很想喂他们老拳 。。。。。 哈哈，蛮暴力的吧 。

呼喊快乐吧，快乐地活在当下，我真心地希望我们都是的 。

So, this morning I bring along the tiramisu to my office, and hv my colleagues to taste it ...... fortunately and suprisingly they think it's quite ok. But some did feel it's too bitter, but some like the bitterness.

Hemm, seems like different ppl got different taste. I myself would not like the bitterness, haha ..... I like sweet things, but not too sweet. Next round would make a more cocoa taste tiramisu .

Well, still got few slices in the fridge, my family members are not big fans of it ..... so it will eventually go to my own stomach. Well, guess this coming weekend need to hike a few more hills and swim a few more rounds to get rid of the fat yeah .

So here the 3 of us ...... dip insides the pool, but yet doesn't seems like swimming at all. The reason ..... we don't actually know how to swim .

But what a great swimming pool we're having here. LPL suggested that we go to her brother apartment swimming pool instead of the public swimming pool, what a good suggestion . The swimming pool is at the 6th floor of the apartment, it's outdoor, and when we look around, you can actually see the PG Port from there, and the sea.

So bk to the swimming, I wasn't sure I was swimming or "struggling" in the pool, coz from my pose, seems the later fit me better . Instead of doing the breakstroke, I'm acting more like a drunken frog which totally forgotten how to move it's limbs .

And I caught a cold when swimming out there, what a looser . Yeah, I didn't breath in and out properly, so all the water comes into my nose and to my trachea ...... seems like really a grumpy fellow aren't I .

But it's fun, so that's matter the most ...... a happy drunken frog in the lovely sunday evening, watching the sun goes down ..... not on me, not yet .

So there I was, trying to get all the ingredients for the tiramisu ........ started my works early today on a lovely Sunday morning, then it flop .

The tiramisu didn't taste and looks exactly what I hv at SY's place ..... I put in too much coffee powder, so when the biscuit dip insides it, it is soooooooooo bitter .

And the looks ...... doesn't looks like tiramisu at all, I means not elegant at all, that's why I didn't take any shot and show it here .

But anyhow, I ain't gonna quit ....... hv promise Quin to make her a nice one when she's bk here in April. Ahhhhh, seems like I'm running out of time .

"When you love someone, you shld say it out, LOUD. Else the moment will pass you by". My favourite quote from the movie "My Best Friend's Wedding".

Hv you been in the situation before ? Hv you said it ? Or you let the moment passed you by ?

Sometimes you thought it is not the right moment yet, and you will still hv plenty of chances to say it. But maybe that is your last chance, someone up there make a twist of fate, and you never hv the chance to even see each others again.

But after you hv said it, what will happens ? Will you 2 be happily living together ever after ? You might and you might not ..... but that is another story.

I gaze at the moment ..... but I couldn't say it. And it passed me by.

Just got a news from my big brother, his childhood friend got lung cancer, found out today and it's already at stage 4, the last stage ...... before death.

I remember him as a handsome young guy, he is the shortest among my big bro's friends, but the most handsome. They are all like a big brother for me, even when I saw them in my university campus, I need to politely greet them even at that time I was annoyed by the hot weather.

We all know lung cancer is always link with smoking habit, I wouldn't know if he's a heavy smoker, but I guess he shld be as the living is getting tough on him these days.

I wish he knew the consequences when he start pick up the cigarette, light it up, and allow the toxin to destroy his once healthy body.

Someone once told me, smoking doesn't makes you looks bad. It certainly not, but it makes you sick, so sick that you can lost your lives ..... and makes those love you live in great grief.

There will always be hard times in life, sometimes so tough that you need to rely on soomething else to get rid of it ...... many ppl turn to smoking, I never understand why .... and I never ask as well. May I ask ?? Why ??

So last night I went to bed early, hv a nice sleep ..... and wake up on time, but how the hell I still forget to put my specs bk to my notebook case ???

When I open the case this morning, OMG ..... how I am gonna work without my specs ??? Well, I hv been wearing specs with computer lens all this while when facing the screen, and maybe it's mental things, just feel that my eyes will ache if I don't wear it .

So there I was, wonder to go home at once to get it, or to get it during the lunch break. Well, I got to start my work somehow, somemore I need to concetrate on it today as I'm coding a new program, aahhhhh .

So came the lunch time, and suprisingly my eyes are all fine, at least not as bad as I thought. My colleague told me sometimes we rely on the specs too much, but actually we don't need it as we thought.

Now I'm sitting in my room again, wearing my specs and typing this blog ..... I miss it, even just for a day .

续 "不再让你孤单"

我离开你了 投向你的国度
心踏实了 不再摆渡

我努力地 了解着
这国土的历史 路人的表情
我努力地 溶化在这秋天的凉风

你问玫瑰之谷漂亮吗 我说漂亮得很 可我想念你了
银河见着了 我对男孩说
亿颗星 我只见着了一颗星 你就是那心

风沙滚滚 前路似茫茫
可我相信着 你就在前方了 等着我的归来
我回来了 明天会见着你了
心里 嘴里 想着那承诺 不再让你孤单
。。。。。。

I didn't realise I hv played the role of cupid ...... till last night .

She is my best friend, and he's my guru in learning the hiking stuff ...... though I'm very much suprise, but it's fated.

I always believe in fate ...... and I hope and wish everything gonna go well for them. Yes, to my very 1st successful Cupid roleD.

OK, 1 of my reader ask me did I write my blog recently during the office hour. I blushed .

Well, for the past 2 days, I did wrote my blog during the early morning when come into work. The 1st time I did, it's becoz when I submit my post, the site is unavailable, thus my post is not saved, and the site show no sign of recovering at any point, so I hv to re-write in the next morning.

And the 2nd time I did it, which is this morning ..... , it's becoz I hv been busy catching up the downloaded Grey's Anatomy drama on my notebook, learning my Urdu classes .

, I promise my reader there wouldn't be anymore blogging during office hour ..... hope I can keep the promise though .

Well, so last night I was sitting in front of my PC early of the night. I mean Grey's Anatomy is showing on the TV at 8:30pm, but I'm in my room already at 8:15pm ......... and yesterday Denny and Izzie taking the big parts of the show. So why I'm at my room so early ??

When you live with your parents ....... you know you're gonna lost the battle for the TV eventually to them . Not that I'm complaining, and though I'm currently downloading the season 2 & 3 of Grey's Anatomy into my notebook ......... but sometimes I miss watching it in the living room, laying lazily on my sofa.

But anyhow, I'm not mumbling abt the battle ........ my parents work hard when we're studying, and they rarely hv the time for any entertainment after work. Thus they deserve a bit highlight of the day now ........ I'll just take my battle elsewhere .

French huh ?

Guess what ? The Grey's Anatomy I have been downloading lately got the French subtitles, and while I was listening to the English dialouge, same time was reading the French words, matched them .... kind of busy yeah .

I hv attended 1 semester of French class during my final year, and that was 7 years ago. It was just the very beginner standard, and you can guess I hv forgotten most of contents by now. Just once in a while, my friend who go to the class with me, we will speak a dialouge in French when we want to show off to our friends .

Our favourite line "Je ne parlez pas le Francais" (I don't know French) ..... my friend actually told a French guy abt that, and I think that makes him puzzled .

Je suis Teck Choo, J'aime Francais, et je parlez le Francais (not much though ).

I was just got back from the supper with my gang at the AutoCity's Pelita restaurant.

As usual everyone is late except me, so I was sitting there, keep yawning and started to feel impatient with those fellows again.

SB and Alan finally showed up, but I can't blame then though, they're travelling from PG island. I was just upset abt SY, she shld be around the place, and shld show up on time.

But anyhow, at last I did get the tiramisu recipe from SY ....... and don't think I can make it this weekend, as the ingredients are a bit hard to find.

Oh, what I'm trying to tell in this entry is abt the rain ..... we're sitting outside the restaurant, and the rain started to fall. And when I looked up to the night sky, the rain fall seems marvellous, I can clearly see every rain drop, reflected by the light from the shop's banner. How I wish I hv my camera with me then.

But I also wonder I will be able to capture what I see into the photo ...... it takes you luck and great skills, and full preparation too. And this is the 1st time too I look at the rain fall from this angle, which is so nice.

Yeah, I hv been terribly missing the weekend, although I had only been working over the weekend once, which is last week.

We're required to go back to work, to do the recovery job for the disaster, and make sure there're no complications ........ luckily there're none, but somehow I still can't feel good abt it, how can I ?

So tomorrow will be the last working day for this week, and I hv had my weekend arranged with activities, getting up with my buddies and my family, those ppl who cheers up my life .

And also "trying" to make the tiramisu over the weekend, if it's works, then my colleagues shall hv the honour to try it .

I needed to smile so much, I hv not been smiling from my heart for the past week ..... so I'm counting on the weekend, well it could started tomorrow night actually with a small gathering, and I can hv taste my roti canai again .

I'm a sensitive person ...... when a disaster abt to happens, I always can sense it is coming, but somehow unable to stop it from happens.

Got call from lyy in the middle of the night ...... serious problem happens at our workplace. Related to my job scope ........ and eventually will lead to someoone get fired.

I feel bad, real bad ...... for I knew this someone got a sick kid, and she still helping me to troubleshoot my problem on a non working weekend, after she brought her kid back from seeing doctor. And now she might get fired for an unexplained mistake (at least from what I see). I wish she called for help then, and I wish that the experienced will help her then ...... and the disaster won't happens.

I was staring at the ceiling in my office today, wish I could turn back the clock and do differently. But that's nothing much to do now ...... all I can do, is pray that she will be alright, and be given a 2nd chance.

I hope the New Year spirit is still here, that everyone deserve a 2nd chance.

A moment when you feeling really tired, not physically, but mentally.

This is what I hv suffered at work today ...... my heart is just not at the work land so far.

Got my medical report, everything is fine, except having a high cholesterol ..... that means I need to exercise more.